I love her but I'm just too shy

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

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Happy Birthday Ditch!

Ditch! HUUUUUUUG.

**integrated ang talks ni Kuya Carlo at Kuya John Ben dito. hahahaha.

Salamat po.

Happy happy birthday ate Zhan! Dalawa na kayong 'ditch' na importante

sa buhay ko. Iyong isa, 'yong totoo ko ng kapatid. :)

Mahal kita. Mahal kita kahit madalas tayo magkatampuhan, kasi lagi mo

kong inaaway. :'( hahaha. Sorry sa times na itong mga tampuhan e

dumadating 'yong point na hindi kita pinapansin tapos may pagkakataon

pa sinadya ko talaga na saktan ka (once lang 'yon, madalas di lang

kita pinapansin diba? hahaha). Sorry na? Kaya nga sa talk ni Kuya

Carlo kung sino ang nakasakit ng tao intentionally, dalawang kamay

tinaas ko. :)) pero seryoso, sorry na. :( Sobrang nagsisisi ako kung

bakit ko ginawa 'yon tapos sa'yo pa. Tsk. Ang sama ko.

Sobrang thankful ako kay God kasi nagexist ka. When God made you maybe

he's thinking about me.

hahahaha> Biruin mo di ko akalain makakatagpo ako ng katulad mo sa

group natin, ikaw 'yon naiiba, parang ikaw lang 'yon nasa tamang way

tapos kami nagcocounterflow. Akala ko tuloy tama 'yong daan ko dati,

pero hindi pala. Salamat ate Zhan, dahil nag stop ka tinuro ang right

way, sinama mo ko sa way mo. Salamat sa pagpaparealize sa akin na

hindi porket madami ang gumagawa ng isang bagay, 'yon ang tama, hindi

porket ginagawa ng mga kaibigan mo dapat mo na rin gawin. Salamat kasi

isa ka sa major reason kung bakit im living my 2nd chance. Yes

naman. :D Salamat sa mga advices. Sabi mo dapat maexcite ako mag-aral

para maging masipag pero ayaw talaga. haha. Pero hamu ittry ko ulit

bukas. :))

Nalulungkot ako na isipin na gagraduate ka na, tapos hindi na tayo

regular na magkikita. Aww. Pero I can smile without you, kasi tinuruan

mo na ako kung paano. Ang sarap mo kasing kasama ang sarap makita ng

smile mo, nakakabuo ng araw at nakakagaan ng pakiramdam. Kaya lagi ka

lang mag smile at pag grumaduate ka na, lagi kang dadalaw ha at ikaw

na ang manlilibre! hahahaha. Yee.

Smile always ditch, stay blessed at bless other people. Continue

loving. :)

LOVE YOU. :))